A while ago, a mutual friend of my ex-husband (whom became an ex some 7 years ago) and I, dropped me very clear hints that my ex-husband is remarrying soon.(to the alleged "adulter" whom he left me for, back then) I think this friend meant well, probably trying to get me to have some 心里准备. Scared that I might die of shock or something! LOL!! I think it’s rather amusing.
When my ex-husband and I filed for our legal separation, I admit I was indeed a total wreck! Wanted to die… Broke down psychologically… I thought I would turn into a vengeful & vindictive bitch, plotting wickedly for a sweet vengeance. But surprisingly I didn’t. I was grievous for nearly 4 months and then I found myself suddenly but happily attached to a new guy (not Mr Ex-Schoolmate ok, coz this happened 7 years ago) who look much better than my ex-husband. Miraclously I fell in love and forgot about my ex-husband completely. What about revenge? You wondered. I can’t recall any reason to even render a thought on him, her or them.
Time past… memories fade. He became just another face, among many which are familiar. Whatever emotions or feelings, (if they ever existed in the past) were dumped at a remote corner of my sub-conscious. I guess pretty much, they will never have a chance of resurfacing anymore.
Some people call this 麻木, but it didn’t quite describe me. Are you saying that "wa boh kart lan"?… too vulgar liao lah! I think I am only 现实化. Revenge for fuck ar? Shiok meh? Got $$$ meh? Waste energy lor. It’s like trying to resuscitate the dead. Oh, it’s gross!!
When I chanced upon their wedding pictures (on the right. Sorry, no permission to flash their faces), instead of feeling whatever an ex-wife is supposed to feel, I was exhilarated about it. Oh no… Don’t get me wrong. I ain’t a saint, I care nothing about their bliss. It’s their pictures. Damnit!! They were all just darn tasteful and stylo! And the gown is damn gorge lor!! Wow!!…..
WAIT A MINUTE! 7 years ago, I thought I would kill myself seeing him wed the person he left me for and now 7 years later, I am going ‘gaga’ over their wedding pictures?? I am indeed very strange -_-”
Hmm… Don’t know if it is appropriate for me to ask him about their bridal salon? Oh sharkz! What is wrong with me? Why isn’t the word, NOSTALGIA registered anywhere in my dictionary? I am so callous… but it isn’t a bad thing right!?
Erm…. but hor… don’t you agree the gown looks great meh?? ~pout