Don’t kick me on the butt, ok, I admit I have been procrastinating for the longest time, to update my blog. To my friends out there, who have relentlessly rely on my blog to know my whereabouts, my life &/or death. I AM OK LAH!! Just that pure laziness took over me.
I am atypical kind of people to befriend with. For a start, I don’t like to chat on the phone. I don’t know how to take the initiative to ask people out (but if you ask me out, I would usually not turn you down). When I misses a friend, I won’t send out those mushy yet rather meaningless type of SMS. The closest I get to being pro-active in keeping contact, probably is thru MSN, FB or this blog of mine. Call me techno-savvy. LOL!!
Well, to all my dear friends. ALL OF YOU ARE ‘KAN’ IMPORTANT TO ME! It’s just not me to put things in perspective. My fault, I know.
Or maybe it was that bad experience with a girlfriend in school that had me crippled with the lingering taste of betrayal. Here’s the tale:
"She was a popular girl in school, I was more like her sidekick. She was my so-called BFF then. I hung out with her in school all the time, sometimes even after school and during the weekends. We had our differences, but I had always respected her and gave in to her. Then she did the unthinkable, she secretly dated my then boyfriend behind my back and when I found out, I left the guy but kept our friendship. Although I knew she seduced her way to get that guy, I was adamant about not letting a male specie come between us. She wasn’t very thankful though. Then came a time when I did way better than her in a science paper (I usually sucks with tests/exams when compared to her), she threw into a frenzy. She started spreading rumor that I plotted her "failure" by misleading her to study for other subjects. And she led a fraction of my class to boycott me."
It was like "what the fuck is wrong with this bitch?!", luckily I stopped seeing her when we graduated. For quite some time, I only dare chilled out with guys from my neighborhood, coz I concluded that girls were either too vindictive for me to handle or they are just darn evil, so I stayed away.
Then I met these bunch of non-venomous girls in poly, whom gave me to courage to want girlfriends back into my life again. And down the road, I met many more great girlfriends for me to believe that there are a lot more genuinely nice girls out there and I should get over the post-trauma of that ex-BFF .
Today, let me honor these girlfriends of mine who had been around for 10 long years or more, of my life.THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE! I LOVE YOU ALL.